I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve fucking thought of it.
Married and Dating
I think that my date yesterday went very well. I won’t give too many details. But I personally had a great time. My date was bright, beautiful, classy and very sexy. She’s understandably private, so I won’t be documenting details of our time together, now or in the future.
My wife’s date went well too. They’re meeting for lunch again soon. I’m finding that my biggest concern is not about how much she enjoys the sex, or about a fear of him taking her away from me, it’s that she might get hurt. As with many things in life it’s risk vs. reward I suppose. I’m getting so much out of my budding relationship that I wish for my wife to have something similar.
I think we may be transitioning from swingers to polyamory. It’s a tricky thing though. The swinger lifestyle has been pretty good to us. We’ve made friends and we love the atmosphere. I know there are people who go to the parties and don’t hook up, or only hook up with people that they’re in relationships with. So even if we were to stop swinging, or take a break we could still go and dance with friends. It’s something we’ll have to discuss in the coming weeks. If my wife wants to stay in the lifestyle I don’t think I can just take that away from her. All I know is that right now I’d rather focus on the New Relationship Energy and the women who are responsible for it. I say women because without my wife’s acceptance, and at times encouragement, I wouldn’t be in this exciting place. Of course I owe a lot to my new girlfriend too (I think that’s the right term!).